Arousal
I am in this constant state of arousal. My face if flushed red and my nipples are erect, I can smell myself...
I feel ashamed, humbled and small - and its delicious. I can hardly wait for this to get more intense.. I crave it.

I feel like a whore. Being submissive to a stranger - waiting to get home so that I can be fucked by my husband. Even my toes are tingling.

I have just masturbated standing up in the toilet at work, with my skirt hiked up to my waist and my cunt burning with arousal.
I am finding it harder and harder to stay focused - I need to cum but the struggle to get to the brink and back is such delicious !

I crave more!

9 July 2004
God... I am still aroused. Hence this journal entry.

For some reason, knowing that I am being controlled by Caine is driving me wild. The act - the mindframe of submission - the feeling - is so exciting.

To be controlled is so deeply satisfying for me...

I know that this will start to calm down somewhat when the realities of work hit me this morning... but till then, I am enjoying the thrill and relishing the thrill of further humiliation... not knowing when it will come!

First submission
My heart is racing as I type this... My first entry in what I hope will be a long journey into my absolute submission... sexual and spiritual... To Prof Caine... I offer myself - mind - body - soul... my absolute obedience and compliance!